More Music With A Message...

I am not a big Kenny Chesney fan but this youtube video is about the making of his video for the song, Who You'd Be Today. I think it speaks to the heart of anyone who has lost a loved one and have days where you wander into the land of "what if" - like I do!

It is still a big deal to me that my sister died so young. It is a fact that at some point everyday I cry about it. Thankfully God is very patient with me and loves me even with my issues and bouts of anger. I hold fast to the hope that it will not always feel this raw. Right now I feel like true healing will not come until I get to Heaven myself.

The last full line in the song says at lot
"I'll see you again someday"

and the last spoken line in the video says even more!
"...It happens for a reason...you gotta have faith!"

See if you catch that at the end.





Who You'd Be Today

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
See your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe your gone

(Chorus:)
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today

Would you see the world
Would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Somedays the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy

(Chorus)

Today [3x]
Today [3x]

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know, I'll see you again someday

Someday, someday

Ever just wish you had stayed in bed?

Yesterday was Friday the 13th again...same as the day after my sister's death just three months back...HOWEVER I AM NOT SUPERSTITIOUS! God has blessed my life and I am sure He has spared me from so much more than I will ever know on this side of eternity!

Yesterday, I had a day sorta like this "youtube" bit! SOMEHOW...a harbinger (spring clip) on my HUGE keychain detached and I lost the remote that locks/unlocks my SUV. More importantly I lost an expensive SanDisk compact flash (media) with over 200 priceless and irreplaceable digital photos on it! I don't care about the $ part of it but the sentimental part of me is tormented that these pics of my dearly departed sister's boys (Josh's graduation and Kyle's first camp experience)as well as some Father's Day and other shots I simply cannot duplicate or restage - ARE ALL LOST!

PLEASE PRAY that someone whoever has these items will soon step forward with them! I am "heart sick" about the whole situation and just keep breaking down and crying over yet another loss! I know everyone dislikes loss...well I HATE LOSS. I have had my moments -major losses over the years and the past few months (to over a year now). Frankly, am weary like David was in the Psalms!

I recognize that this is all in God's hands...I need to accept "His ways are not mine". I have plans but He is the one WHO IS in ultimate control. I have learned a valuable lesson about guarding priceless things! I am confident that my Lord knows the location of all my losses - for sure!

If you too need a laugh...watch this clip!

So proud of Josh...

The boy born in 1989, who first gave me the title "Aunt" Terri, just keeps making me proud! Last evening, I ventured to Fawn Grove, PA to the attend awards assembly of the North Harford High School Class of 2007, of which my nephew Joshua is a member. The event had to be held across the PA line at Kennard Dale High School because N.H.H.S. is undergoing construction for much-needed renovations. I am so glad I made the trip.

Josh received an award bestowed upon him by some faculty members. I can't recall the exact title but it had to do with making a special contribution to school life while enduring challenges. Losing his mother, less than a month after we celebrated his rite of passage into adulthood (yes he is 18!), was/is a major trauma for this young man. Now 6 weeks out from our loss, with the Lord's help, we are chugging along a moment at a time. I have to say, Joshua Kemp Jones, "You sure are gifted with your mother's perseverance!" I am looking forward to you receiving your diploma the end of the month!

One of the challenges that Josh had to face upon Greta's passing was to finish his senior year project -a custom wooden nightstand. I cannot imagine trying "to get back to the grind after such" but he sure did! He, with tenacity, finished one fabulously beautiful piece of furniture! This "Auntie" is so impressed with his work...I am thinking "nephew" might be my answer to reasonably priced finer furnishings I desire for our Lord-willing, soon-coming new log home! I must mention here that I helped feed, change, babysit, rock and sing to him during his first 15 months of life!!! This must count for some preferential treatment!

Our family is very grateful to a church friend of Dad's, a dear man, Mr. Thompson. This gifted gentleman mentored Josh throughout this project. He is a precious saint of God who would take no compensation for his time, even though he has had serious health challenges of late! We are praying for him and ask you to join us as we ask the Lord to bless him and protect him as he undergoes a pace-maker procedure this week. Amen!

In a time when our world is such a mess; hatred, rage and selfishness reign on every newscast! It is good to know that the Lord still has his godly servants, extraordinary hearts willing to sacrifice to make a difference in the life of a young person! Mr. Thompson is so generous and I know my nephew will never forget the contribution that this man of God made to his project and life. His time was an eternal investment that I know the Lord will not leave as unrewarded. Praise be to Jesus, AMEN and AMEN!